18 years have passed, no goodbye words...just parted ways. Childish acts now became regrets. Pride overpowered everything. Had learned to forget, unknowingly kept in the subconscious. Started anew after mended by another love. The pain of the first love totally forgotten. The memory sometimes creeps in my mind to which I became an expert to shut. The face my heart have etched was faded by pain. Dreams I did not want to entertain kept coming back. Common friends were the alley to the dreams and the memories we once shared started to unfold again. Your faded image becomes vivid once more. Now, this time, it is hard to shut it out, for the truth is, there never was closure. After all those years, discovered that we both just kept the feelings aside. Too late it may seem but fate found its way to confront us with the truth, but this truth we know will not set us free.
It maybe harsh to say it but I am fulfilled for I knew you never gave up on me. You revealed to me that you were just thrown by circumstances to make decisions in your life you were not capable of doing then.
However, amidst all this turmoil, the commitment and the love to my present life overpowers everything. The values I've inculcated in my system keeps me from being astray to the life I live. I am not saddened. I am not regretting. I am not confused. I am strengthened, for the principle I held during the times we parted upholds the meaning of LOVE that we both knew then....I have shared to the man I am most committed.
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3 comments:
Wow, what an entry. Very intense, very heartfelt, Etts. Daw gin balhasan man ko ba. Isn't blogging very catarthic?
It's was me, Isko.
Reality bites indeed. Hahaha. It's from deep down. Sa ba-ul ko pa na gin kalkal. But of course the person I'm referring to may not read it. hehehe
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